Funeral Service

Today was a very tought day for me. I attended my grandfather's funeral service which was from 10am-12 midnight. I arrived at 1:30p since I was preparing the gift that I was going to present to my grandmother in memory of my grandfather. Like I mentioned before it is so surreal. I remember being raised by my papi tali, all the pinching and biting to express his love. My last memory of him is great! It was 2/10/2010 when I was in the hospital room with him. He was on an oxygen mask and in and out of consciousness, but this moment was great. I was blowing kisses to him when he attempted to do the same. Once he did I got closer and began kissing his cheek, he attempted to do the same. Then my cousin's husband yells out, "I think her boyfriend is going to be jealous". At that moment my papi tali began laughing so loud that the entire hospital room filled of family members began to join in on the laughter. I will never forget this. I will never forget the great memories I had with the grandfather that raised me. I love you and I miss you very much. I walked in the service and right away I approached my grandmother and presented her with her present from me (a collage of my grandfather). The day was filled of memories shared by all my family members. The memorial was beautiful, with flower arrangement, a slideshow of pictures, his favorite music and best of all a chance to touch him and say good-bye for the last time. The family shared their memories, we all laughed, cried, ate, and of coaurse we all gathered around him and tossed to his life with his favorite drink of choice (aguardiente). My grandfather was a gorgeous man, who now lives in the kingdom of heaven looking down and protecting us. I know he is in my heart every single day for the rest of my life!!!

Sad Day

My grandfather has been in the hospital since 2/1/10, was sent to hospice at home 2/15/10, and passed away this morning. It is just too surreal to even talk about. I can say that he was a great man, taught us all we know, and is now in a better place where he no longer has to suffer.

Rest In Peace Papi Tali (10/2/1928-2/18/2010)

New adjustment

This is a new adjustment not just for me, but for my animals too. It took the cat 3 full day to get acquantated with the place, the dog is still suffering that we will not be returning to the parent's house. As for me, I am loving every single minute of it. I love coming home to my babes, making dinner together, spending time together, and specially sleeping together.

The Move!

On the night of February 13th, I moved in. I packed my clothes, important items and of coarse the cat and the dog. I was settled in within 3 hours. I wanted to wake up on Valentine's Day in my new place. It was a great experience. To add to the move, he made me dinner for Valentine's Day, a bubble bath and rose petals for 2 with wine and chocolate. The funniest part of it all was the matching cards we gave each other, stating that from this day forth would being a new life, and a great year of changes. I guess we will have to wait to see what these changes are in the next year.

Making it MINE too...

Last night, we had company over. His friend had brought over a coffee table side table for the living room. Unfortunantly it made the living room look tiny. I decided with his agreement to turn the stone coffee table into a dinning room table (traditional Japanesse) and the side table as decor. I was on a mission to find nice Japanesse decor, but zero luck! This morning my mission continued. I got home with 2 decor red fish, 4 sitting pillows, koi fish center piece, and bamboo place mats. I could not be any happier with what I found and what I created. Making this home,

into OUR home. MISSION COMPLETED!

Anxiety

It begins: "Anxiety" my psychological and physiological state characterized by cognitive, somatic, emotional, and behavioral components that are combined to create an unpleasant feeling that is typically associated with uneasiness, fear, or worry. The questions begin towards the BIG move on V-day: What do I take? Where am I gonna put it? Will it all fit? What about the animals? Where will their stuff go? Will living with him really work? So, I did what I do best to relax those anxieties and just picked up a handbag full of clothes, my dog and headed to the apartment for the weekend. Once there to my suprise nothing had changed since the last 2 weeks I was there. I made dinner and cleaned EVERYTHING since the OCD kicked in! A day later, the anxieties have returned and still do not know how to answer all my questions. I have now created some new ones (GREAT!): Will I bring everything on V-day? When will I set up everything? Will I have enough time? Are the animals adjust to their new home? Are we gonna do anything for Valentine's Day? The thoughts just keep on racing!

I do it for LOVE...

30 days from today, I will be moving out of my parent's house. This is all I have ever known for 24 years. I will be moving in with my boyfriend of 3 years. We started dating 12/08/06. He moved in my parents' house 12/13/07. Got his own place 7/15/2009. It has been very hard to be apart, seeing each other only on the weekends for 6 months. NOW, in 30 days on 2/14/2010 I will be moving in with him. This is very exciting for the both of us, but especially to me! The change of environment, change of life style, change of me. I will be blogging the entire process. WISH ME LUCK....

Renovation!

The old blog, has its memories (now deleted). I could give an update, but I will focus on how life is now and how it will be changing in the upcoming months.